Catching Up

I've got alot of it to do lately. Work's been blah this week. I don't have Amanda up front with me so not only is it busier then usual for me, it's alot more boring. I hope she feels better soon though!
I decided the weekend before last that I was going on strike from cleaning. I mean I would pick up and make sure it didn't get gross with dirty dishes and stuff (I'm a stickler for the kitchen and bathroom being clean) but over all I wasn't going to do as much as I usually do so that maybe, just maybe, Clark would see for himself what exactly I do. Long story short, it didn't work. Not only did I have a dirty house but I also was in an argument w/him for 2 days. So yesterday and the day before that, I had to catch up on all the cleaning I stopped doing. Which meant about an hour and a half stuck in the bedroom putting clothes away, picking up all my books scattered everywhere and rounding up all the dirty towels. Then I had to clean Lucas' cage. That rabbit poops more then anything I've ever seen! And he seems to like one particular corner which makes it impossible to get really clean (well as much as I would like it at least). I don't really think he cares though.
The baby blanket is coming along nicely. I found that I had dropped a stitch or two maybe 2 or 3 rows down from where I was at so I had to rip that back and start over but I wasn't too upset. The baby I'm making it for isn't due until September so I'm not too worried. I wish I had my camera so I could show pictures but alas, I do not. (Stupid dog...gr) I have been thinking of going to a local pawn shop and putting one in lay-a-way though. I don't know if it would even be worth the trouble. Maybe I should just try and do the impossible and save up? I'm not that great with saving money.
I found a hook case that I adore! I already have one but this seems so fun to make and is super cute with the bright colors they made it in! I want to try and find some cute fun yarn to do it with but I don't want to get too ambitious. I've been doing alot of knitting lately and haven't done crochet in a while so I might be rusty and get frustrated if I use an odd yarn. What do you think?
Today is my appointment to talk to Dr. Booth about the injectables. Which I guess it's more of a do you think I should doctor? And if he says yes, then I go see the fertility specialist Dr. Burns who would put me on them. The thought of sticking myself with a needle everyday isn't too appealing but eh you gotta do what ya gotta do right?
Lately I've been putting alot of thought into going on a diet and quitting smoking. The only problem I forsee with that, besides the obvious of being miserable, is that I tend to be like alot of people and eat more and gain weight when I quit smoking. I don't know if I should do both of them at once or try one at a time?! I found this method for quitting smoking that seems pretty interesting though.
Well, I've put off working long enough...back to the ole grinding stone right?!

Tick tock tick tock

Sooo I turned 23 Sunday! It was the usual birthday of me being all sad b/c it's another year gone by that I haven't had a baby and my birthdays always seem to suck. I made out pretty good tho. I got an 8 ft (7ft maybe?) ALL pink fishing pole and flip bell reel from Clark. I loooove it! Now I can go riverfishing! Mom & Dad made me a nice dinner, breakfast, got me a pretty card, and a nice picture frame. Clark's mom & dad got me an awesome Longaberger recipe card basket, and a pretty picture frame that you can put lots of pictures in. Isaiah (my sweet monkey) got me a green apple scented oil scent dispenser thing (with the reeds, dunno wut they're called), and a shirt. I got lots of cards at work and Clark also bought me a t-shirt from Rav. Which I just got in today so I'm super excited to wear it tonight to SnB. If I go. I have full intentions of going but with the way my mood has been today blah I dunno... I don't wanna be a Debbie Downer ya kno?
I'm just in my own self pity mood. I took a test and got a BFN. I took it a few days too early so I'm still somewhat hopeful but still. I'm reading into IUI and all these different injectables since this will be my last month on Clomid and it's just so unbelievable to think I have to have that kind of assistance to do what billions of women have been doing for how many thousands of years on their own? And of course I'm lucky and get messed up. I feel broken. Can't they just fix me? Preferablly a quick fix?
The only thing I've really ever wanted out of life is to be a mother. And to have that one thing taken away (possibly, I'm a pessimist) sucks...
Told you I was bein Debbie...
I'm gonna test again. Don't know when but just incase. I'm sure you'll hear my rant about that when I get another BFN. I'm just glad I have a few wonderful people to catch me when I fall.

First spin kit!

Yes I got one! I ordered it off Etsy from BHMAlpacas. I'm super excited! I'm hoping and praying that I will be able to do it and not totally screw it up! I really want to get into dyeing fibers and spinning them, but I wanted to make sure I could even spin before I got into the dyeing part.
I got a beautiful hook/needle case from Joy off of the group RAK on Ravelry.


Isn't it gorgeous?!! =D

The Dogwood Arts & Crafts Festival is this weekend and I'm super excited about that as well! I'm looking forward to finding some great jewelry and candles! I need some more tarts as my dog has eaten most of mine! =]

I go next Monday to my obgyn to have my follicle ultrasound done and see how things are growing. I keep having this whimsical wish that I'll go in and during the ultrasound the tech just casually turns to me and says (something along the lines of...) "Well it seems as though everything worked because you're pregnant. There's your baby." *Turns monitor around so I can see my little jelly bean I've wanted my whole life. Yea wishful thinking but I'm still praying for it. If you would like to send any prayers my way they would be much appreciated!

I'm off to go feed my face. Husssooonnns! YEA!